The Search

Hey guys it’s been a while since I last updated my blog. Sorry about that, it’s been a very busy couple of weeks, or months… But, I am back! This morning, I thought I lost my reading glasses, where I actually just misplaced it. I’ll tell you about it! So, I reached the classroom at 7:40 AM (I know it’s early, 8 AM class!), and as I searched through my bag to get my glasses, I couldn’t find it. I panicked because I really need the glasses or else I’ll go ‘blind’. So I raced back to my dorm room to look for them. Couldn’t find them. Then I went back to class while remembering the last time I had my glasses on. I looked for them everywhere – lecture hall, lost and found, friend’s car – still couldn’t find it. My vision was soooo blurred that in the physics lecture, I had to take out my phone to take pictures of the slides so that I could actually read what’s on them. Yeah, that’s how blurry it was. During the break between classes, I decided to go back to my room and search for them more carefully. I don’t keep my hopes up, of course. And you know what, my glasses were right there, under the study table. How did I miss that!

At this point, you might think, “why in the world are you telling me this?” Haha, I know this is not quite the things you wanna hear. I don’t want to sound cheesy but bear with me for a while.

Sometimes in life, that’s the way people act. You lose something, and you want to find it real bad. Firstly, you search for it in your home, but since you are too panicked and hurried, you cannot seem to find it, even though it’s right there. With a blurred vision, you try to look for it everywhere else. You go here and there, looking for that one thing. But still, you cannot find it. And finally, when you are worn out and have little to no hope left, you decide to return home. You search for it one last time, carefully. Then there it is, lying there all along. You just have to look for it hard enough and look underneath some things that might be covering it.

What are the things you ‘lose’? What are the things you are searching for? What are the things covering that one thing?

Love? Search for it in your heart, know that you are loved by the people around you, by your friends, family or neighbours. Or you know what, even when the whole world is against you, always remember that there is a God who sacrificed His Only Son to save you. Isn’t that love?

“But God shows His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8

Hope? You can never lose hope; hope for a better day, because there will always be one. Just as there are bad times; there will come good times as well. Even though things may seem uncertain in the moment, and even though fear may be trying to cloud your mind, Search through yourself. You will find a lot of things in life that you can be thankful for. Whether it be a roof over your head, good friends to talk to, family who is there for you, clothes or food. Be thankful and put your hope in God. He never leaves, He never disappoints.

“Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40:30-31

Happiness? Everyone is capable of being happy. Lots of time we search for happiness outside of ourselves. We seek happiness from money, possessions, and other people. But, genuine happiness does not come from outside influences. Believe me when I say happiness is a choice. So, choose to be happy in this uncertain world. 

“Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, rejoice.” Philippians 4:4

Well guys, whatever it is that you lose, try searching it in yourself. It might already be there from the beginning, you just don’t realize it. Find it within yourself.

Thanks for bearing with me. Hahahaha, but that’s pretty much it. Hope you enjoy reading this.

In the search,
Kimberly Subianto

“The greets explorer on this earth never takes voyages as long as those of the man who descends to the depth of his heart.” -Julien Green

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