why i do what i do.

Have you ever wondered, why would you wake up at 7am in the morning everyday just to go to school? Or why would you run outside even when it is pouring hard? Or why would you starve yourself just to participate in 30 Hour Famine? Or why would you spend your Saturday night helping the homeless people in Downtown Eastside?

It’s an interesting question to ask, you see. I bet a lot of people would not think of the reason, the WHYs, of the different activities they do. And yes, including yours truly. The answer goes beyond the ‘what’. Many people today ask, “what do you do?” rather than “why do you do it?” I’ve been thinking a lot about this question. This past few days, my mind has been bombarded with this one question, “why I do what I do?” So this post will simply tell you why I do some of the activities in my daily lives. Trust me, it takes me quite a while to figure this out, and probably I’m still figuring things out.
why i do what i do: learn.
You don’t simply wake up at 7am in the morning every single day just because you want to go to school. Is it simply to earn a bachelor degree and nothing else? Well, at least for me, I want to learn and gain new knowledge together with friends. I have some kind of a realistically unrealistic dream that I would change and inspire the world, someday somehow. What’s even better is that in school, I get to work towards that goal with like-minded people who would struggle and thrive together. There is such pure joy seeing how friends have each other’s back and constantly encouraging one another. And I guess lastly, I want to do my parents proud. Maybe those are the reasons why I do what I do. And those are the reasons that keep me going.
why i do what i do: exercise.
I am a gym rat, a health freak, whatever you want to call it. I’d like to say I do some form of exercise, be it going to the gym, running outside, playing basketball or doing yoga, 3-4 times a week. At least I try to. But does it simply stop there? I asked myself, why I do what I do? Maybe it is because I care about my health and how I look. But maybe it is more than that. I normally exercise by myself because I find it relaxing. Exercise, to me, is like a stress relief or some other way I spend my ‘me-time’. I don’t always exercise alone. Say when I play basketball, I go out and play with friends. I cherish the relationship being built through doing activities together. Just enjoying each other’s company and bonding with each other. Maybe those are the reasons why I do what I do. And those are the reasons that keep me going.
why i do what i do: volunteer.
I can say I am pretty active in World Vision UBC and as well as Potter’s Place. In WVUBC, I was an exec and together as a team, we raise funds to support the less fortunate kids from different countries financially. In Potter’s Place, a bunch of us from my church as well as other different churches gather together to serve the homeless people in Downtown Eastside by giving them food after a church service setting. Both activities relate to helping the less fortunate. But really, why I do what I do? Why would I spare hours and hours of my time each week to do what is considered extras or ‘redundant’ to do? Why would I go around Vancouver just to look for sponsorship for a fundraiser we are going to have in the next few weeks? Why would I spend my time with the homeless people on a Saturday night when I can just lie down on my bed watching TV series? I can say that it’s just because of my responsibility and duty. But is it really? No one really asked me to. Anyway, if that’s even the case, how long would I be able to stand it? Not very long. I honestly had to ask myself that same question over and over again for the past few days. Why I do what I do?
I volunteer because I am blessed enough to even be able to help out, even through the smallest act of kindness. I volunteer because I care for them and find a great deal of empathy for them. I volunteer because I want to share the love from Christ that it would be too selfish for me to simply keep it to myself. And lastly, I volunteer because I find a great joy in doing it. It may seem like I am helping them, but really, they are helping me. It is a blessing to be a blessing. Maybe those are the reasons why I do what I do. And those are the reasons that keep me going.
why i do what i do: ministry.
Lastly, it comes to this. I have been doing church ministry for a few years. I usher, most of the time. But going beyond the church or Sunday ministry, I try to be a missionary wherever I go. Again, it comes down to this question, “why I do what I do?” Is it only because I signed up for ushering and so I have to be committed? Is it only because there is a need in the church for people to usher? Is it only because I want to follow everybody else who is serving? If that were the case, how would I not be burned out after some time? So I asked myself, why I do what I do. For quite a few days.
It did not occur to me until today. We had baptism in Kits Beach where we witness two lives being committed to Jesus in public. There is such pure joy seeing how God pursue us. It is the work of God and not ours. Seeing how God shows His grace to us and actually let us be a part of His Majestic Kingdom leaves us standing there in awe. In awe of His irrevocable faithfulness, in awe of His never ending grace, in awe of His everlasting presence, in awe of His unfailing love. It is very common to hear people, including myself say, “it is a privilege to serve,” without even meaning to say it. But really, it truly is a privilege to serve. Many times we (I) serve in church as if the church needs our service, as if God needs our (my) service. But really, He doesn’t. As much as we are paying the price in our ministry, He paid the ultimate price on the cross. And just realizing that changes my perspective in serving. I am in service to grow and learn how to live in dependency on God. I am in service to surrender these empty hands of mine for God’s good works. Ultimately, I am in service to serve God’s Great Commandment and God’s Great Commission.
I am in this ministry because it is a privilege to serve God. I am in this ministry because I need God. I am in this ministry because I want to be used as broken vessels that may bring the Living Water to those who are thirsty. I am in this ministry because I know I am full of brokenness and only in Him they may be turned into beautiful things. I am in this ministry because of the hurting people around me. And how I wish someday they could say, “I declare my faith in Jesus Christ.” like what happened earlier today. Maybe those are the reasons why I do what I do. And those are the reasons that keep me going.
Well, I think that’s all I have for now. I would really encourage you to start thinking of why you do what you do. It really puts you into a whole new perspective in doing things in your daily lives. Doing something while knowing why you do it is simply a blessing. It is something we all should practice, because losing sight of the whys in our activities lead us nowhere.
Today, ask yourself, “why I do what I do?”
Be blessed,

Kimberly Subianto
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