to do is not to be.

to do is not to be

It has been one of those weeks where I can see my schedule fill up so fast – school report, world vision meetings, catch-up dinners, volunteers, church meetings, caregroups, prayer nights, so on and so on. During times like these, it is so hard for us, for me at least, to stop and pull back and ask ourselves: what are we even doing?

Yes, it is true that a part of your being – be it a student, engineer, friend, whatever you are – also includes your own doing. You study, so you are a student. You calculate the structural strength of a building, and so you are an engineer. Yes, I guess it is somewhat true for those roles or professions. If you don’t study, you surely are still a student, maybe a lazy one. If you did your calculation and found the building stumbled during seismic actions, you probably are an unqualified engineer. But, know this. Know that first and foremost, your being is in the likeness of God (Genesis 1:27). And yes no matter how broken you think you are, or how crappy your life might seem, you are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him. There are no wrong doings that will make that fact less true, and there are no good deeds that will make that fact more true. Your doing doesn’t define your being.

You are who He says you are. And He is pleased with how He created you. You are not defined by your feelings, or your circumstances, or your failures, or your successes, or what others think about you. Let alone your doings. Get this. To do is not to be.

“See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know Him. Beloved, we are God’s children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when He appears we shall be like him, because we shall see Him as He is.” 1 John 3:1-2 (ESV)

 Read it. Read it again. Let it sink in. Yes, you. You who call upon His name. You who call Him Abba, Father. You are called children of God. You are the sons and daughters of the most High King. You are adopted into the family of God. Then, what more do you want to know for you to be it. Be the carrier of His identity. Be delighted in Him. Be His child. Be you.

 Have you ever wondered why are you called _____ (insert your parent’s name)’s child? Is it because you follow the way your parents dress up? Is it because you imitate the way your parents laugh? Is it because you do whatever they tell you to do? Maybe. But what if you don’t? What if you rebelled and followed your own desire? What if you decided to start walking on your own paths away from them? Does that change the fact that you are their child? No. No, it doesn’t.

 Friends, hear me out. Just because you don’t follow the rules, it doesn’t define your being as a rebel. Just because you keep on failing, it doesn’t define your being as an accident. Just because you like to party, it doesn’t define your being as a party animal (well maybe to some extent haha sorry totally joking :p). But in all seriousness though, don’t let your doings define who you are. Because you are not your doings.

 Likewise, just because you go to church, it doesn’t define your being as a Jesus lover. Just because you read the bible everyday, it doesn’t define your being as God’s favorite kid. Just because you can pray with beautiful words, it doesn’t define your being as a mature believer. Just because you serve in three different ministries, it doesn’t define your being as a worshiper. Don’t get me wrong, it’s great, it really is. But don’t limit His grace with your works. Dig deeper to your being as a child of God, and believe me, your doings will come out by itself.

 You are told to love. And so you try so hard to love even if by doing so your heart cracks a little at a time.

You are told to forgive your enemies. And so you fight your rage and pretend to be okay, as so you thought that it is called true forgiveness.

You are told to always be joyful. And so you fake a smile whenever bad situations come your way, while deep down blaming yourself for your grief.

You are told to pray. And so you ramble around half asleep although you don’t believe that God is even listening to you.

You are told to serve. And so you showcase your talents in or out of church, and all the while, pride is creeping in your mind as you serve.

You are told to give. And so you reach in your pocket to get the smallest change you have, and yes, you feel good about it.

You are told to worship. And so you lift up your hands as you sing praises to Him, although you don’t mean every words you said.

And at the end of the day, you thought to yourself… Is this it?

Being a child means that you carry your parents’ identity, their DNA. Search for it, yearn for it, and thirst for it. Look for your Source, and find your identity in God, and Him alone.

You are told to love. And you realize that God is love, and He has poured out so much love in you that it overflows.

You are told to forgive your enemies. And you realize that God has forgiven you for all you did, all you do, and all you will do that you have no reason to not forgive others.

You are told to always be joyful. And you realize that His grace is sufficient and you hold on to that hope, regardless the situation.

You are told to pray. And you realize that as much as we want to communicate with Him, He wants us more, hence, the intimacy.

You are told to serve. And you realize that He is the King above all kings, and that being included in His works, though as a servant, is such a privilege.

You are told to give. And you realize that all you possess comes from Him that our giving is nothing compared to what He has given us.

You are told to worship. And you realize that to worship Jesus is definitely the highest calling we can have, and may you find joy in that.

Everything makes sense now, doesn’t it? You are not your own doing. May your being be found in who your Father is, and what your Father has done for you. And once you find that being, it will automatically translates to what you do. So fellas, hear me out on this. To do is not to be.

 After all, you are a human BEING, not a human DOING.

Blessings,

Kimberly Subianto

P.S. I know I have been away for a LONG LOOOONGGG time, but I have my own reasons, aside from my laziness. But, I am finally back, the blog is back! With a new design, AND MY OWN PERSONAL DOMAIN (http://kimberlysubi.com). I cannot be more excited than this! Let me know what you think of the new look, whether you like it, or not. Feel free to leave a comment!

P.S.S. (Kim in a serious face.) As much as I use the word ‘you’ in this blogpost, I am writing this to myself as well. I am also struggling to focus more on my being rather than my doing. So, please keep me in your prayers! 😉

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3 thoughts on “to do is not to be.

  1. Hi Kimberlie!!

    Great post! Love it!! Especially the reflection on “You are told to _____” and how we find our identity in WHO HE IS and WHAT HE’S DONE!!! Remember…
    Who God is –> What He’s Done –> Who I am –> What I do –> How I do it.
    (Read: How I do it, is defined by What I do… which is defined by Who I Am… which is defined by What He’s Done for/to me… which is defined by Who God is!!)

    I also love your final words: “After all, you are a human BEING, not a human DOING.”

    Keep up the good work!
    I also love the new website!

    love,
    Daryl

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