on the water i’ll walk.

on the water i'll walk

If you ask my friends, they’ll probably agree that I can be quite an adventurous person. I like going on a little adventure, exploring new places and doing things I’ve never done before, especially the thrilling ones. But with that said, I also have the fear of not knowing what to expect in those new unfamiliar things, or even more so what I will experience throughout that period of time. As much as I like all the uuh-and-aahs, the adrenaline, the thrills and everything in between, there is a part of me that screams out of worry and fear of the things I mentioned earlier. Now that fear sort of diminishes when I have company. At least now, instead of being all scared by myself, I have someone else to be scared together with :p But in all seriousness, I feel a little bit more at peace if there is someone whom I trust and whom I know will do his/her best to protect or comfort me at times when I am terrified.

You’ve heard of the story when Jesus, then Peter, walks on water (Well, if you haven’t, it’s time to hear it now! Read Matthew 14:22-33). That night, Peter ‘challenged’ Jesus to take him on an adventure to somewhere he has never been before – or even, an impossible thing to do – to walk on water. To add on to that, there was great waves crushing and strong wind blowing. I cannot imagine how scared Peter was at that time, but I’m sure he trusted Jesus that much for him to have the courage to say “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” (v. 28)

Jesus said, “Come.”

So Peter stepped out of the boat, trusting in what Jesus said. Peter stepped out of his comfort zone to a complete unfamiliar, risky even, place where he does not have any control over. He left what he thought is safe, and pursue something that might not seem the most life-sustaining journey. So many times in our lives, we are stuck in our own little circle of self-satisfying and self-comforting zone when the fact is that we are called for a greater work of a greater purpose. Yes, it might not make sense at all. It might seem impossible. But I guess, some time in lives, we are called to walk on water, knowing that there is a God who is all-powerful and all-knowing at the end of the line.

And so we’ll walk. Just like how I can be at peace when there is someone I trust by my side as I go through a fearful moment, we’ll walk on water with all the fear we can have, but standing firm in the One who is calling us because He is trustworthy and is the only one who can save us. Will it be easy? No. The storm and waves do not stop blowing against us. They do not cease to shake us. There might be moments when we are so close to falling over. There might be moments when we are so close to giving up. There might be moments when we are just full of doubts of the journey we are in. And that is normal. But I challenge you to pull back and fix your eyes on what matters most.

Just like Peter, when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and began to sink (v.30), we tend to focus too much on our problems, our inadequacy, our doubts, our fear, our failures, and just about anything else that seems out of place. We tend to pay too much attention on the things that do not seem to work out, and forget to fix our eyes on Him who gives us strength, peace and hope. And when we take our eyes off Him, we start to lose sight of our source of hope. We try to use our own strength and power to sustain ourselves, and we start sinking. Know that when He puts you to it, He will get you through it. Know that when your challenges seem to be this big, He is THAT big!

And let this be an encouragement for you all, especially those of you who are faced with too many uncertainties in this season of your life right now. Maybe you are still sitting still on your boat, or maybe some of you are constantly hearing a call but doubting to step outside of your zone into the deep waters, or even maybe some of you are already on the water, but the wind is blowing hard and you are trying so hard to stand still. Whichever one you are, you can be sure of this: He is the Almighty God who knows all things, and the loving God who reaches out and takes hold of you when you fall.

It might be one bumpy journey out there in the depths, but let us continue to fix our eyes on Him who is trustworthy and is more than able to save us. Let us surrender all our fear and doubts to Him in exchange of His peace, comfort and joy. Our help comes from the Lord and Him alone.

“My help comes from the Lord,
         who made heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.”
                                    –Psalm 121:2-3

In His mighty strength,
Kimberly Subianto


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